I was wrongly accused of something, and my life was thrown into
frustration and stress. Through the prayers of my fellow church members
and friends, our Lord has helped me through this ordeal and maintained
my health. He has also provided for my family and kept us close. He
came with me the first time I was given a chance to speak for myself,
and gave me the words to expose the liars and let the truth ring. The
entire process is not over yet, and I pray and ask for prayers that
God keeps the truth ringing loud and clear until this horror is finished.
I ask it through Jesus Christ, our Lord.
Grants Pass USA
Your Treasures Are Where Your Heart Is
My family never had a college graduate. I would give anything to graduate
from college. I then thought that if I graduated from law school, they
could never take it away from me. Then I thought that if I passed the
bar exam, that would be a genuine milestone.
On and on I went, looking for security and fulfilment in tomorrows.
First it was "if only" I could become a state Deputy Attorney
General, and then win a trial before a jury, next an appellate case,
and finally, it was if I could only win before the U.S. Circuit Court
of Appeals, then the United States Supreme Court. If only I could be
a partner in a respectable law firm. If only I could become Vice President
and General Counsel of that major insurance company. and all the while,
like at a county fair, where the shill takes all your money by focusing
your eye on the wrong moveable object, I lost sight of where my heart
was. Lying, I call it advocacy for my clients. Cheating, I became proud
of my "clever" tactics.
Stealing, I rationalized my "professionalism". Stepping on
people, I began to feel the need for drink, for deviation from society's
morals. I sought to fill the void I felt with membership in a satanic
cult that promised to make me rich and famous. [I never stopped to think
that this was not a goal that Jesus would inspire.] When I realized
I was teamed up with Satan, I cried out as Peter did when he began to
sink. "Lord, help me!" And he did, with a genuine "Road
to Damascus" experience, removing me from the cult, and glorious.
My heart seeks only Him, today, and He gives me victory in all my life,
family, marriage, kids, and relationships with others. My road to Damascus
experience was heavenly. It touched my heart.
When I boldly chose to follow the Lord, and all seemed stacked against
me [the cult having all my money, my wife, and my son] the heavens did
open. I spent a period that day truly knowing all, knowing God and knowing
that only Jesus could be my Saviour. I could see. I could hear. I had
understanding and knew what I had to do, that day I was on the mountaintop.
He brought me there.
The important thing was that God revealed Himself to me in a very real
and very personal way - so as to repave a faith that had gotten confused.
Now I had focus. I was able to say the right words to touch the heart
of my wife - and a mediocre marriage has been genuinely blessed. I abandoned
lying, cheating and stealing and now find myself consulted, privately,
by leaders in our City. Leaders of government and pastors. The Lord
has blessed me with a ministry of Bible Studies in nursing homes and
retirement centres and with directing the Jesus Video Project in our
County. I can hardly begin to recount, even sing, what He has done in
my life.
I lived on high six figures a year. I had three homes, five cars, a
boat and sulky kids. I always spent about $25,000 more than I made.
Today, I work hard, but live on social security, in a rental home of
about 1,200 sq. ft., filled with love. Today, I live in the Promised Land - in victory and joy - and as God told us in Deut.11:
11, it is a land of hills and valleys. But the joy remains. The peace
abounds. I have no money in my pocket; no fear over Y2K but every need
of my family and mine's met by Him. Hope this does it. Feel free to
use it, with my e-mail address if you wish, and God bless your ministry,
and your heart.
Lee Holley
holleyfm@cdsnet.net
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