D. Davis
Longview,
Texas 12 years ago I was addicted to crack. I had smoke crack for a
total of 2 years. I move to the present in 1988 trying to find myself
and restore my family. I had 3 children. I worked and my husband was
my enable. He wanted me to fell became nothing. The year of 1988 I promise
myself I was going to quit to be a mother to my children if I had to
go to rehab. Jan of 19891 was about to check myself in rehab by phone
for help.
When I heard the person voice, I thought about my children
what would become of them while I seek help. I drop the phone ran back
to my apartment. I fell down on my knee and ask God to come down and
deliver me from the substance. when you say God work in mystery ways
believe me. This Jesus come through the ceiling and touch me, took the
substance away from me when he left I got up and I didn’t have
a desire to smoke crack again. Yes, I had withdraws, and craves for
weeks. When the crave came I would pray and ask God to give me what
I needed to overcome and he lift the crave. I was good to go until the
next time and I would call upon him again, until I was ok and I been
clean for 12 years, 10 days and 13 hrs and 54 mins. I thank God, I praise
God, God is head of my life.
What a Mighty God we Serve.
Delivered From Drugs and Homosexuality
(Name Withheld)
I am 28 years old and currently a student at a Bible Institute. At the
age of four I was diagnosed with Cerebral Palsy, which in my case effects
my walking, and balance. I am the oldest of four and the only boy. I
never had a real father figure because my dad was always working.
As I grew older, I felt rejected, lonely, unloved, and not able to fit
in with others. At the age of twelve I became curious about other guys
and girls but more toward guys. Today, as I look back about four to
five years, I can remember the times of depression, self-rejection,
rejection from others and loneliness. Around age twenty-two, I met a
girl who seemed to like me for who I was. We became a combination of
close friends and boy/girl friend. Later, I discovered from her parents
that she was involved in an inter-racial relationship. You can imagine
how I felt thinking she was using me as a cover-up to her parents.
This situation hit at a bad time with my struggling with attractions
to the same sex, depression, and rejection. I decided to lay off the
ideas of finding a companion and spend some time trying to find myself.
About a year later, I became involved in telecommunications. I was still
confused about life. I started working at a local video store just to
keep busy. There was a guy there I had been conversing with through
telecommunications. I began to share my confusion with him. One night
he stopped by the store and gave me a few diskettes.
This was my first time to meet him in person. I was hungry for people
to hang around but when I looked at him there was a strong eye contact,
which was a strange feeling at first. He never told me what was on the
diskettes. They contained gay computer pornography. I won't go further
into the friendship with this person because it's not important. As
I drew deeper into the gay lifestyle and pornography, my mind was more
and more on sex and I began to lust over any young guy. I went to bars
almost every other weekend to take my mind off things. Relationships
faltered, both gay and straight.
A close friend of mine knew of my messed up life. She invited me to
go to church with her. I was very hesitant at first but agreed. That
night was such a wonderful night of discovery. The people there greeted
me with open arms and hugs, people who never even knew me. This was
on a Wednesday night.
The following Sunday night I went with this friend of mine again. There
was a sweet peaceful feeling there. A feeling I had never felt before.
The peace was so strong I cried in relief and lifted my hands to the
Lord. When I met the Lord, He filled me with peace and just loved me
like everyone else.
As of March 1996, I am four years old in the family of God. Today, I
am free from pornography, alcohol and homosexual desires. I do not believe
a person is born gay. A homosexual is kind of like an alcoholic; it's
a sexual addiction for guys. I don't speak just to homosexuals but anyone
who is into drugs, drinking and sexual activities. You can try as hard
as you want to break free but you will never succeed on your own. There
is one way and one way only and that is through Christ. I've been there.
During my four years as a Christian, I have had my share of down falls
but I keep pressing on for Jesus. As of this day, I must crucify the
old nature on a daily basis and thank God for another day of walking
in victory!
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