I was hospitalised for depression 5 years ago. I was fortunate enough
to be able to go through a Christian based therapy. During those 3 weeks,
the counsellors were trying to make me understand that God loves me,
even when I don't love myself. I felt as if God was so disgusted with
me that he had to have his back to me, unable to even look at me.
Towards the end of my stay there, I was out in the courtyard, sifting
through all they had tried to teach me. The day was as dreary and grey
as I was inside. There was no sight of the sun. I looked towards the
heavens and said, "God, are they right? Are you really still there?
Do you really still love me"? At that VERY moment, the clouds broke
through and one single beam of sunlight shined through.
That was the turning point of my entire life. At that moment, I began
to believe Romans 8:38-39 "For I am convinced that neither death
nor life, neither angels nor demons, neither the present nor the future,
nor any powers, neither height nor depth, nor anything else in all creation,
will be able to separate us from the love of God that is in Christ Jesus
our Lord".
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