Revelations from God
Life they say is very complex and like most humans, I have had my share of complexities and difficulties in life. As long as I could remember, I have always wanted answerers to many questions. For example, where do we go when we die? Is there really life after death? Why do some in life seem to have it all and some merely get by. Why is there so much sorrow in the world? Is there really a God and if so where is he, who is he and who am I to him. I was born into a Christian family but I am what you will call a mere churchgoer. I attended for the sake of it just to satisfy my religious conscience. There were so many things I did not understand about Christianity even though I called myself a Christian and one of them is the whole concept of speaking in tongues. I was not into reading my bible and I had no idea where to find anything in the bible. The main use I had for my bible was putting it under my pillow especially after I have had a bad dream. I always believe that putting my bible under my pillow will give me some form of protection. Even though I am not what anyone would consider to be a practicing Christian I have always believed there has to be a God however the whole concept of God is somehow strange to me. I saw God as a super being with some kind of super power who is able to provide for my needs and resolve my problems. So for this reason I prayed to God occasionally hoping he will hear my prayers. I pray usually when there is crisis in my life and as for crisis; I have had my share of it. Although I pray to God occasionally hoping that he will answer my prayers but I never saw God in light of having any kind of relationship with him. The main reason for this was because I saw him more as a God that is severe in his judgements towards those that are meant to be his people or chosen. I wanted what I believe God can give but did not want to know God beyond what I can get from him. This is all due to my fear of him that he is a severe judge towards those that are his chosen and so long as I only ask to get the little that I need then he will not see me as his chosen and that way I can avoid his judgement. I never expected much from God given that I did not see him in any kind of relationship mind and I always accredit any kind of success that I may have to my hardworking and efforts rather than to God even when I have prayed to God to have that success. I never equated God with love because God as far as I was concerned is a severe judge and as a judge more severe on those that are his people and for this reason I tried to stay clear of his ways as much as I consider necessary. Love is something I looked for from other human beings and never thought in my mind that the only one that can love me as I desired to be loved is God. One of the major way I thought of as necessary to stay clear of God’s judgement was not to be born again because all I seem to hear from those that are meant to be born again is judgement and death. Therefore as far as I was concerned if I stayed clear of been born again then I can follow my own standards and that way the God of the born again people will not have any reason to judge me by his own standards. My entire beliefs and life changed after my eventful encounter with God, which started in the later part of 2003, and it was this eventful encounter that led me to start writing. Before 2003 starting from around late 2001 I started to feel as if my life was going nowhere and it was as if all doors were sealed and everything was at a stand still. Nothing seems to be working and naturally I said my little prayers hoping as usual that God will answer me. However instead of things getting better things seems to be getting worse and as a result I concluded that if there is indeed a God he clearly hates me and he obviously has blocked his ears now completely to my prayers. I hated everything about my life and I hated what to me I see as a world full of injustice, inequality and unfairness. However, I always enjoy helping people and for some reason I have always had this strange feeling that I am meant to be doing some kind of job or provide some kind of service that involve offering people some genuine help and practical solutions. Life in general as far as I was concerned has always appeared to me like a rat race that involves engaging in repeated daily routines. Most of the time I felt all alone and at this point in my life I was extremely depressed and many times the thought of suicide crossed my mind as I felt I was better off dead than to continue to live in what I consider a sorrowful world. Things got from bad to worse and the worse things got the more I saw God as my enemy instead of my friend. Things got so bad to the point that I saw suicide more and more as my only option. The turn around to my life came about in October 2003. I got so distressed and out of shear frustration, I sought God one night as I have never before. I asked too many questions such as why am I here on earth. What is my purpose and does he ever listen at all to me. Even though I have occasionally prayed to God as I said I could not certainly say that he has ever answered my prayers. The reason as I mentioned is because I have always put things down to my own efforts and now when it seems my efforts are not yielding any fruitful results like they use to it became clear to me that I needed some divine intervention. As such I became desperate for some specific answers to my prayers but strangely it was as if the more desperate I became the more things got worse. This very night I realised how hopeless and helpless I had become and wondered if God could see just how hopeless and helpless I was. I begged him to come to my rescue if he can hear me and said I was tired and in desperate need of his help. I also asked him to forgive me if at all I had offended him but at the same time I could not help but blame him for everything that had gone wrong in my life after all he has all the power. I was at a breaking point at this time and I was desperate for some form of breakthrough. Life had no meaning to me and I wanted to know the meaning of life. I cried so much that night and when I woke up the following day, it was with a headache. The following day was Sunday and at this point, I had stopped going to church. Church was nice but I needed more than simply going to a church. When I woke up I deliberated some more on the events of my life and after much deliberation and the usual daily routines I decided to watch the telly. I switched my television on to the news channel and as usual, it was the same horror stories. The news was all about death, war and one disaster after the other. I changed the channel after a few minutes of watching as it was making me to feel even more depressed and hopeless about my entire life. I choose one of the Christian Channels and found that a preacher that I had listened to a number of times was in the middle of a sermon. I was about to change the channel again when I realised that the sermon was about life’s purpose so I decided to listen. The Preacher talked about our purpose in life and the main theme of his message was that God is a God of promises and if we look in the bible, we would find his promises to us. He stated that we should all be positive in our thinking and when we are down we should look through the bible for God’s promises and when we read the bible we should form a habit of highlighting God’s promises and knowing them by heart to encourage us. The message cheered me up a bit and given the state of my mind, I could well do with some cheering up. As I was listening to the message I wondered about the promises spoken about by the preacher and wondered also how it relates to me so after the conclusion of the message I decided to look through the bible for such promises. My only use for my bible has always been for under my pillow and the only thing I am familiar with in the bible is Psalm 23. Therefore, when I picked up my bible on that day I had no clue where to begin. It was like finding a needle out of a hay sack but I was desperate so I decided to read the bible like a novel. I opened the first book Genesis and began to read from verse 1. By the time, I reached verse 3 something amazing happened to me that was beyond comprehension. For some strange reason Genesis chapter 1 verse 1 to 3 meant so much to me and just from reading it, I felt like someone has lifted off a veil from my face. I heard a voice whispering some things to me and they were soothing to my ears. At first I was not sure if it was my wishful thinking but even though I was not at this point sure what has happened I knew something has happened or better still about to happen. From that day onwards, my life took a new turn and I became a lot more interested in praying not for the things that I had always wanted to have in the world but to know God and for God to draw me closer to him. I also became interested in reading the bible but because I had no idea where to find anything I decided I would just open it and read whatever page I have opened. In February 2004, I had an experience that puts everything in higher perspective. I woke up on the day and following my 2003 experience I have made up my mind to read my bible page as I open it everyday and say a little prayer to God to draw me closer to him before going about my normal day to day rat race routine. However, on this very day, something tells me to read Acts chapter 2 and after I had finished reading, I decided to say a little prayer as usual. As I open my mouth to pray I could not say a word, instead I busted into tears and I could not stop crying. I cried so much to the point of having a blocked nose and as I was crying I could not stop singing the song I love you Lord and Lord I give you my heart, I give you my soul. Then suddenly like a force of wind everywhere and beyond my imagination and human comprehension, I started to fall everywhere and each time I fall, I will get up only to fall down again. After several fall and as it became obvious that I could not stand without falling I choose to remain flat on the ground. I do not know how long I was flat on the ground for but when I rose up again I open my mouth and I started to speak in tongues. The amazing thing was that I understood everything that came out of my mouth and in translation it goes like this “woman thou are loosed. Rejoice, today you have been fully delivered from the claws of Lucifer. Your heart was hardened and I had to circumcise it. Now in good circumcised heart you are totally free from all shackles and bondage. In total freedom go into the world and proclaim the gospel and I will be with you to the end of days”. When the interpretation came to me I could not curtail my joy. I started to jump up and down in so much excitement shouting I am free, Jesus is Lord. I felt like calling a world press conference and say to the whole world Jesus is Lord and God is real and I know because I am free and even though I cannot explain this freedom I just know I am free from something that has been compressing me all of my life. In the 2003 experience it was as if a veil was lifted off my eyes but in this 2004 experience it is as if my eye is not just open but as if something heavy has been lifted off me. From that day onwards the voice became clearer in my mind and as it got clearer I became convinced that this is the God that the bible is all about speaking to me. I felt like an investigative reporter that has landed on the biggest scoop ever which is that God does not just exist but he speaks and I can speak to him. Not only was God speaking to me I find that he was prepared to answer any question I have no matter what it is about. Since having my encounter I have become a Pastor and head of a church ministry called Freedom House International Ministries teaching the Word of God unto those that are willing and ready to hear it. (website www.freedom-house.org.uk). As I continued to experience God daily in my life I started to ask many of the questions that have always troubled my mind and the answers he gave me were just amazing. He became my teacher and as time goes on, he said to me that I must start to write down all these things as they are not just for me but for the entire human race. He said that the time that we are in is the end times and he has asked me to write these things for two reasons. First, it is to give better understanding of himself to mankind and through his shedding of the necessary light on things and by his answering of many key questions the saints at heart will find in this writings the much-needed encouragement they require to continue in their match on to the very end. Secondly, he said that it is to serve as a warning to all of humankind that they should repent for his kingdom has come, Christ shall soon return and judgement day is near. My entire experience with God to date is beyond what I can simply describe for God is indeed love and as love incredibly faithful as divine love. At the start of it all, he took me through the scriptures step by step by simply telling me to just open my bible like I use to before. However to my surprise I always land on a page that is full of the kind of words of promises that I went in search of in the first place back in 2003. Through my daily experience with God, I have leant that God is very much a supernatural loving God and he speaks and he is not just the most powerful, but he is indeed the king above all kings in all dimensions in all dominion realm. I discover God love all humans so much and although my life from discovering God in the physical has been like hell on earth, I always find a renewed daily strength from his comforting love and in his words of encouragement to me. With a renewed hope and strength in God I am assured daily of his love for me and with God by my side, I continue to rise daily above my circumstances which I must say has been highly challenging for me. Since I began to write the things that God told me to write so much ups and downs has taken place in my life physically and there has been times that I have been pushed to the very limit but in all of this things I give thanks always to God for his love and comfort. There are times that I have nearly given up on everything because of all that I have been through but by grace of God I always have a renewed strength to go on. God’s teaching is continuous and I have been writing now for over three years on different aspects of life, and I write as he directs me. He calls these teachings “Revelations in Masterdominion” and the first ever lesson God gave me is about “God as the forgiver”. This teaching is in many parts and is in actual conversations with God. I have since completed the first part of my revelations from God and I am looking for a reputable publisher to help me publish it to spread God’s message as he has given it to me to the whole of mankind.