Eventually One night i decided to check out

After years of different types of trauma i began a reckless life style of drinking and womanizing.

I had many partners i seemed to be a player all my friends thought i was lucky to have many women. I looked fine on the outside but on the inside depression was brewing.

When there was no audience i was hurting .Eventually depression got the best of me at the peak of depression i was in so much spiritual pain that i could not think of any physical pain that could top what i was feeling, i could have walked into a burning building and not feared the pain.

Eventually One night i decided to check out,
i tried to kill myself by car exhaust that did not work,
I then tried pills that did not work either.
I then drove my car 75 miles an hour into a parked truck..
I crushed many bones in my body and tore my aorta. However in the car i felt a complete peace, a voice in my spirit said its over. I have not been the same since.

I have since recovered fully this was in April 2002 one year later on the anniversary April 2003 of my attempt i was baptist unaware that it was the anniversary of my suicide attempt.

If there is anybody out there who needs help getting through depression or has had a similar encounter drop a line okubo47@aol.com